"An acre of performance is worth a whole world of promise". ~William Dean Howells
I have learned this past year that friends might just be acquaintances and acquaintances might just use you. I have learned to not take promises so seriously because, more than likely, they will not be kept. The friends I thought I once had have proven to not care as much as I expected of them. The closeness I had with friends at college is now lost between distance and life. It is sad that the memories I had from college feel a bit different because of this change in closeness and friendship now. I will always have those memories, but I am sad to think that I will not always have those friends. I expected things to be different. I guess my expectations were too high. On the other hand, I have realized that I deserve better. I deserve to be surrounded by people who care about me as much as I care about them. I am slowly finding those people too. :)
On a brighter note, I have found my calling! I want to continue my education in the field of Naturopathic Medicine. I have found an amazing program that is rather close to home, and I can complete the entire program in about 4 years! This program will allow me to become a certified naturopathic physician. I want to be a physician that heals the whole body, not one that just helps individual symptoms. Naturopathic medicine allows me to do just that! I am very excited to visit the campus and learn even more about the program and faculty. My future is bright and I look forward to be able to one day help patients :)
As for me being the patient, I am feeling okay. I have some good days and bad days. The neurofeedback wasn't as effective as I had wished it to be. There was slight positive changes in irritability, but the noise sensitivity, fatigue, and brain fog are all still there. Slowly but surely I will get better somehow. The biofeedback is still effective (thank goodness!) so I have continued that protocol along with the Spark energy drink, which really does help. I am just so thankful to have my family supporting me through all of this. I have no idea what I would have done without them! :)
